2nd Time Learning IV

[IWB]

Another update after a long time.
I am really not sure if things are happening or not. I have wondered if I should be writing so much here since it sometimes seems someone outside of the people involved are reading.
OM is out of contact, and it seems this is over for her emotionally. But, W is still in replay. Tattoos are very important, and she constantly talks about the tattoo artist (here we go again). I wonder how she will feel with this stuff all over her when this is over.

I am doing things to stay sidetracked, but not really getting a life. I feel my faith has disappeared, or is only half as strong as before. I am not overly sad or depressed as I was, and seem to be dealing with everything well.

Things crashed for W a few weeks ago, and she wanted affection again. Again, I won't be specific since I question whether someone had found this thread. I pushed her away this time, supporting her with words. I had not desire to be hurt again. I am getting an I don't care attitude, and it bothers me somewhat that I might be messing this whole thing up. Someone mentioned that when w is ready to come back, she will try to reconnect. Will I even care then?