Long story short on today. Went as expected. My loving e-mails were received warmly but no fireworks. My call is that her confusion is clearing up but she needs more time to believe that I won't break her heart again. I can live with that. I made big points with her todayby just listening and offering support. More on this later.
I give her a lot more attention than you wise DBers would recommend but she needs a lot. She has been known to dance on a bartop stone sober. I always walk the fine line of smothering her but that is where I think I need to be. Can I really appear confident and strong while showering her with affection? I am getting better at reading her signals (better late than never)of what she wants. Sometimes it is a slap on the backside sometimes it is a kiss on her hand.
I may be out for a few days. W got a call today that our friends husband killed himself last night. Tough situation. They were having R and financial problems but seeing a C and only married a year. Now she is a widow @ 28. We will probably travel to the funeral. Just another example if how bad it could be. Wishing you all well and counting my blessings twice today. Feeling very fortunate just to be able to go home soon to give my W a hug. Man, hugs sure do feel good at times like these. Who turned on the waterfall in my eyes?
