Had a good weekend all around. R is in a holding pattern. We have a lot of fun together but I still feel like something is missing. The snooping urge is getting pretty strong again but I know it will just make me feel bad. I will probably see that she is still contacting people, I will have violated her privacy, and broke a promise to myself. Nothing positive about it. My gut instinct is that we are slipping back into the same routine. The only difference is that she isn't going out except for volleyball and then she is home early. She is making more comments about future plans with me. I guess eventually I will just get used to this. My biggest problem is my insecurity with our R.
It is early in the month so I guess I need to keep that in perspective. The last 4 months have been terrible for the first week. If she has to go "out" this week all of a sudden that will speak volumes to the negative. That has been the pattern. All I can do is hope for the best.
