W was very stressed again last night about her business and our extensive weekend plans. I encouraged her to take some time and come outside. She watered plants and planted more vegatation. I was busting my hump prepping topsoil for grass. There is absolutely no fun in that at all but it keeps me busy. She just mentioned how relaxed she was when all of the kid's "wheels came off". Not what she needed, she got a little distant. I tried to just give her space and not let her know it was bothering me. It must of because I dreamt that she told me she was done and this R is over. It was way too real. I kept it to myself today. Well, this morning was fine, I got a slap on the behind when I got out of the shower and then I rubbed her very sore back (too much planting). Another valuable lesson on over-analyzing. She is still stressed today but I am trying to just back off.
I have gotten away from my daily reflections I am doing and trying to control too much again. It sure makes it easier when I turn it over to a higher power but the problem is I keep taking it back. At least I am improving on this aspect a little.
My brother and hid W are taking all 3 of our S to the zoo tomorrow. He is one brave soul. They are great kids but they can get a little wild (okay, a lot wild). Now I get to finish the landscaping w/o worrying about running over a kid with the skidloader. Now that is nerve racking. I am just rambling so I better go.
Thanks again for everyone's input. I'll keep working on not reacting to everything and being more objective. Have a great weekend.
