Ok... folks... am having a tad of a meltdown and going slightly nutbar today. Posted this same to Zebra's thread but figured I'd better do same on my own too.
Just found out this AM that today is the day that H is going out for dinner with his small working group for the big project he worked on in which the FC is included along with the female confidante friend, a third regular (girl - all pals I am told), the boss and one other guy. sigh... They are going to a nice restaurant early after work, and I have this urge to do all kinds of nutbar things- calling his work and leaving an anonymous message for FC that she has to be somewhere else at dinner time, like she'd believe it! calling H and telling him I also have a meeting at same restaurant with some friends and I'll see him there... to just freaking showing up, and or asking him to not go. ( too late for the last option actually)
The good thing... he told me where he was going and that it was the working group. I have never asked who was on the working group but did see a list of members. I don't know if he knows that I know! Is this a secret or just an omission of fact? Do I ask after the fact and see if he tells me? I am now soooo wound up. The thought of him spending time across a dinner table with her or even beside her makes me want to throw up and sends me back to DB diet days.. of not wanting to eat, being irritable. And over what?!!! A fantasy that never happened. But it has never been resolved.. so I go nutbar!
Ok.. got to breathe... and not freak... right?!
HMMM Zebra's latet on secrets and trust are big here.. need to deal with this I think! thanks guys... tree
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calling H and telling him I also have a meeting at same restaurant with some friends and I'll see him there... to just freaking showing up, and or asking him to not go. ( too late for the last option actually) 
