GH...I understand exactly what you are saying. I have had some of those same thoughts. My affair came after our initial seperation. About 2 months. I have rollercoaster days where one minute Im all down about the situation and the next minute im reflecting on the reasons we seperated in the first place. I was unhappy. but was that his fault? some of it, yes. some of it, no. My confusion runs rampid these days.
