I am feeling pretty hopeless. I have really been doing pretty good about leaving him alone and not calling and crying and driving him crazy. I blew it today. He came to the house to do some work that needs to be done to sell. I left the house before he got here but made the mistake of sending him several text messages telling him how sorry i was for destroying our marriage and that i loved him and wanted him etc. i really need to get a grip. he says he will never come back. i guess i need to deal with that.
