Gist of it would be that I think your H is in some kind of depression.
Sage and I cannot talk about a certain part of our situation. We are rebuilding around that bump in our road.
I am hoping that you and your H will be able to find a way to take a break from the stress the two of you have been under for awhile .
I always say to stay away from the bitter so that you can enjoy the sweet. In my mind it took be putting an electric wire around the forbidden topic. It'd fry whatever sweetness is left. I am able to back off real good now.