((((MATILDA))))!! Oh,how I wish there was something I could do or say that would ease your pain and help you!! You have done all you can until your H decides to forgive himself. You made the big step when you forgave him and told him you wanted to repair your R. Then you did start on the road to repairing but he got halted in his tracks by guilt and can't seem to get past that. You have done what you can to show him you you love him and you forgave him but it seems that since he is unable to forgive himself,he doesn't believe you should either. He is very confused and really needs help. Is he still going to C? Sure do hope he is. You have to be strong for you and your family and do what's best for you. I know how much you love your H and how badly you want your marriage to survive this. I feel in my heart that he really loves you but he is feeling so unlovable that he can't understand why you love him. All you can do now is love him and let him know that you are there for him. I will pray that he gets the help he needs and can finally forgive himself. I hope he knows if God can forgive him,how could you do any less! Stay strong and remember that I care about you so much and you are always in my thoughts and prayers!! Your Friend,pfroglady
