I've made a decision...

[NNP1965]

ImLin, thank you for taking the time to read my story. I really appreciate it. I need all the input I can get.

I was thinking last night that even when I am healthy enough to address things with him, he will not be healthy enough to receive it. As Jokerman said he will be defensive and he is very good at turning things back on me and making me feel as if I am the one who has done something wrong.

My counselor said last night I can go on pretending that the elephant is not sitting with us in the living room and risk him deciding again that he is not happy and leaving, or I can eventually say something and pray that it will instigate a change for the better.

However it may not and that is what I have to prepare for.

I now know that I can not (I'm not willing) to live the rest of my days like this. I believe that the things my H is doing are gradually escalating. Reading back over our history I am certain of it.