I've made a decision...

[NNP1965]

I felt really good after my session last night. I see that I have much work to do on me, but for the first time I think I understand how it can happen. I think I was looking for a reason why this could not work and why this was not a good counselor. I do feel she will be good for me.

I am committed to making this work and getting through it. I am determined not to explode on my H, but to be able to slowly come to terms with myself and to be able to talk to him about things that are bothering me.

I am leaving on a short trip tomorrow and my H and kids are leaving on a little longer trip. I am looking forward to having some time to myself at home for a few days before they get back.

Also I read back through this whole thread today and I am right. It is good to go back and read, so I am going to try to write more.