I've made a decision...

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That is an interesting view Grasshopper. What I fear being blindsided by is him seeming (pretending??) to be happy and fine and then saying he's not and does not want to be married anymore. WHACK!!!

I know I have to stop snooping, it is doing no one any good, least of all me if I am going to stay in this sitch.

My second counseling session is this afternoon. I am not nervous like I was last week, but I have this feeling of dread. Almost like "what can she tell me to make any of this better"? She can't tell me anything so why even go? I know that is the wrong attitude to have and I am trying to stop it! Maybe she will surprise me and I will come away from this session with a sense of how this is supposed to work. Counseling I mean.

I did not post about it, but this past weekend H and I actually touched on some hard to discuss subjects. I am pleased because (to my knowledge) there were no hard feelings afterward. I see this as a definite baby step.