I'm home alone for a few hours and I have been vacuuming and the thought came into my head that since my H obviously does not love me, it must be pure torture for him to keep up this charade of a happy family.
Probably the kindest thing for me to do since I do love him is to let him go... actually tell him to go.
The counselor said that my choices are to confront him about his actions and let him decide to leave or not... or to stop worrying about it and live with it. she said I do not have to decide one way or the other any time soon, but basically it will come down to those being my choices.
I may as well just jump off a bridge now, don't ya think?
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
