I've made a decision...

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I have an appt with a counselor next week, I wish it could be sooner, but that was the first available appointment.

I agree with what you are saying PL. All I can do is fix me and I am broken. I realize that now. With out going into all the gory details I recently came dangerously close to finding a way to "expose" my H's behavior and I am certain it would have had disasterous results.

I have to focus on me. I can not stop him from doing whatever he is doing or going to do. I can not prevent it by being near 24/7.

I want to remain married, but I also want this marriage to be honest and healthy. I know I will not acheive that by monitoring what my H is doing.

I have read DR and SSM. I have the KLA CD's and listen to them often. However, for the life of me I can not grasp the concept of loving detachment. Any help with that would be greatly appreciated.