I've made a decision...

[NNP1965]

I just realized the above posts do not really address why I moved to this forum. I have pasted some posts from another forum, I hope they make sense.

I found out by accident about a month ago that my H had registered with a sex search site. I honestly believe that he is looking at this site just to get off, but I do not know that for sure.

I don't feel I can confront him about my knowing about this, as it would be considered snooping. I did honestly stumble across the knowledge of it though.

We have what everyone would think is a wonderful happy family. I even have to remind myself sometimes that it is not.

Do I just pretend I don't know about this? I am afraid to make a move and afriad not to.

I am beginning to wonder how I can "overlook" this. Last night I caught myself imagining what would happen if I confronted H and he left (which I am sure he would). I would survive. I know I would. I love my H and want my marriage, but do I want it knowing what he is doing and him thinking he is getting away with it?

How do I continue to do this? I fear I will begin to hate him for being this two faced. Do I sacrifice all of me so he can pretend we have a great marriage, just so he will not leave. What kind of coward am I???