Hang in there babe. As you can probably tell by my post that my weekend wasnt so enjoyable either. I too know how you feel when you say that you have to keep your feelings to yourself for fear of how they will make your H feel. I mentioned in my thread that I get so tired of biting my tounge sometimes, but its something I need to learn to do.
As Andy mentioned, you ARE my role model. You and all the others in here. I look up to you all for guidance through this horrific event in my life.
Maybe we should read that prayer again that I posted a while back. I havent read it in a while but it did seem to always pick me up somewhat after doing so.