I'm running out the door, but saw your post and just wanted to acknowlege it. I'll post more later this afternoon (or sometime this weekend) about MC today.
You are such a bright light for me. I really need your encouragement, thanks.
I do know it's H's problem, but because I do love him, his problems are my problems, aren't they? When he hurts, I hurt. I know he hurts because of my hurt (which he caused!!!). His successes are my successes. And so on down the line. I know there isn't anything more I can do than I'm already doing for him -- really, I do know that.
Right now it helps me to concentrate on what he's feeling and going through in order to keep my mind off of my own negative feelings. Sometimes the thoughts that bounce around in my head set my mind spinning. One moment I'm thinking: "What an a-hole. How dare he do that to me." Then it's "I can't believe how someone who professes to love me could have hurt me to terribly." Then, "Wow, he's really messed up and in pain himself. What can I do to help HIM." Yikes!!
Yes, today I think I worry about just myself (until MC appt ) What makes Mattie happy? Funny thing is, I don't really know anymore. I've lost myself in all this. I can't for the life of me remember what I used to think about before the bomb.
Well, this was longer than I'd planned. Gotta get out of here and get stuff done.
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) What makes Mattie happy? Funny thing is, I don't really know anymore. I've lost myself in all this. I can't for the life of me remember what I used to think about before the bomb. 
