How do I behave around my cheating husband?

[MonicaP]

I met w/ the bankruptcy atty today and can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Unfortunately H and I didn't meet w/ MC tonight because H has bad rash and needs to see a doctor. I'm hoping it isn't contagious, maybe a bad case of eczema. Anyway, no doubt stress has contributed to it. We'll reschedule for next week.

Still, divorce is coming I feel. The words that he wrote in a recent email keep coming back to haunt me...

"I could no longer look into your eyes and feel like we belonged".

Maybe we really don't belong - maybe I'm supposed to move on. Sometimes I wish I could just wake up and find that we are still together and happily married like we once were. But now those days seem so long ago...there's been so much pain and anger and lies and deception. I wonder if I could ever get over it given the chance. I just can't imagine us ever being able to feel that sort of carefree, giddy love again. I'm not saying that's the test, I just can't imagine him falling back in love with me, and me being able to trust him.

Well, I guess that's all needless worrying.

I feel good that I have started to take charge of my life (finances in this case) again.