Today was a particularly trying day w/ my S4. Since H has been on business trips for 2 weeks now I have had no breaks. This weekend my S4 was impossible! He deliberately hit me, threw things at me, and was generally very defiant. I ran out of patience and really yelled at him. I don't believe in spanking or otherwise and usually just send him to his room for "a break". But I was feeling so angry at him (or his behavior) and started feeling really sorry for myself.
The last thing I wanted was to be a single mom, and I didn't think I was going to have to be one. I was so happy when my H and I found out we were going to have a baby. I was thrilled that I was going to break the cycle of divorce in my family and be able to provide my child with a mom & a dad - ha!
It is still really difficult for me to see happy couples or happy families. I just miss my family. My H and I spent a lot of time w/ S4 from the beginning - we were so happy I thought. Guess I wasn't seeing the full picture.
Well, tomorrow marks 1 year since H met Ow. I know this because of a website I found where he describes when and how they met. And I was an idiot! I encouraged him to go out with his friends that night.
H is supposed to come over tomorrow night after business trip. I just hope I don't fall apart.
Luckily I have to work tomorrow - the only break I get
I'm going to call a divorce atty for a free phone consultation tomorrow too. I need to move forward and find out what my rights are.
Monica
My sitch: Me 40 H 30 M 8 yrs 1 S5.5 Bomb Oct 2005 Sep Nov 2005 H w/ Ow I filed for LS June 2007 H responded w/ D 2007 I have sole P custody, joint L Just need to take care of Final Judgement papers
