I'm concerned about the 'giving up the dreams' thing and the 'something inside of me has died' line. First, the dreams...they can be put on 'hold' - they are dreams. Something for the future, right? The 'something inside of me has died' line got me - that's the line my H gave me...don't like to hear that one.
About the riding together...couldn't your girls be with your son once in a while for you two to go out - do that instead of going to the friend's place...or ride to the friend's place together?
