Monica,

I really don't know what to say. I pray for a peace around you and your son. I hope you H finds his way and that way is back to you.

I posted this to Liz on the newcomers forum, but I think it holds true for you as well.

Assume the worst. Assume Divorce. Here is what you have ahead of you....

You will have the love and respect of your son.

You will be a better person.

You will be a stronger person.

You will be a better mom.

You will have a freedom.

You will have your conscious intact that you DID the right thing.

You will have a closer relationship with God.

You will not have this weight around your neck everyday.

You will be wiser.

You will have peace because you have closure.

You will...in time...be happy once again.

You will have your whole future with a clean conscious ahead of you.