How do I behave around my cheating husband?

[MonicaP]

Thanks superstressed.

I feel so removed from our love, I'm beginning to question our whole relationship. Maybe it was all just an extended affair or puppy love or just a fantasy we projected. I mean, if it were *true* love would I be going through this? Would I be waiting for him to get tired on Ow?

Good memories come up now and then but in general I think I've gone into some sort of survival (defense) mode and can't seem to *feel* it very often.

Then I'll have these thoughts of him w/ Ow just pop into my mind and I'll feel angry, sad, disgusted, enraged. It's weird how it just comes up "out of the blue". I immediately try to stop myself from going on with the thoughts because I end up feeling depressed.

Tonight he picked up S3.5 from school after a long international flight and brought him home (to my place). He cooked dinner, did the dishes, and when I got home he said he wasn't going to stay much longer. We chatted for a while and then he left.

Tomorrow night I'm going out w/ some friends for dinner while H watches S 'til bedtime, then a friend will come over and be here while S (hopefully) sleeps. I'm looking forward to going out and dressing up! It won't hurt that H will see me in new black dress

Well, I pray the answer will be revealed and if it's meant to be our love will return.

Thanks for your kind words.