it sounds like your doing good work. I really couldn't imagine being in your shoes either with him not wanting anything sexually.
Maybe I am lucky that OW lives somewhere else so that they've only gotten to be together physically 3 times. Although the things they say to each other (saw his phone 3 times, but haven't for the last 3 weeks) is incredibly romantic and things he has never ever said to me even in the begining. That's what really hurts me and makes me think he really always did want to be with her (he knew her before me)
Anyways, do keep focusing on God, because he is the only constant, unchanging one we can trust. Humans are unreliable, and we will always fail each other, but God will never fail us.
You are right about him not deserving you!!!!!!
Good luck too, I'll keep checking on you!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."