Well, I made it through our anniversary without too much pain and suffering Actually, because of my new job I didn't have much time to think about it, and later - when H came over to see S3.5 - I kept more to myself. Neither of us mentioned it. It feels strange to have let the day pass without any acknowledgement - sad.

Tonight H was over again to see S3.5 and I was feeling more able (emotionally) to "chat". I brought up my new job, how much I like it, and some things relevant to our son. He said "well, you always did want to work in a place w/ kids" and seemed to be listening. We also spent a few minutes more talking before he left because tomorrow he leaves on a business trip through Thursday. I asked him a little about his trip and his job.

I did suggest that we postpone our Thurs MC appt because it's our 1st one w. new MC and he'll have jet lag. He said several times that he would still go, but I also pointed out that we really don't have the money. I want to go too, but there's also a part of me that's scared he wants to drop the D-bomb in a "safe" place. I guess I can't avoid it forever.

Why has he taken so long to push for divorce? I don't get it! He's the one who's (supposedly) met the woman of his dreams and should be living happily ever after by now. My theory is that it has to do with money. I think he's afraid I'll get more than he's giving me right now - and that ain't much. He did write me an email a while back saying he has been waiting to be sure in his heart - but the rest of his email didn't make it clear to me whether he was "sure" or not.

Well, once again I'm exhausted and now I have a big week/end ahead as a single mom


Monica

My sitch:
Me 40
H 30
M 8 yrs
1 S5.5
Bomb Oct 2005
Sep Nov 2005
H w/ Ow
I filed for LS June 2007
H responded w/ D 2007
I have sole P custody, joint L
Just need to take care of Final Judgement papers