Thank you for your supportive comments. You added something!
I've been DBing since Jan/Feb. H & I have been S since Nov-12 (2 days before my birthday!). I haven't always been able to keep my mouth shut about his obvious lies, but now I'm to the point where I don't even have the energy to call him on it. It doesn't seem to change anything.
I have brought up in the past that I would rather hear No explanation than a lie, but he just keeps on volunteering them. Tonight I'm certain he wanted to leave early to be w/ Ow on the 4th - thinking I would agree to it without protest if I believed he was going to a concert vs. seeing the fireworks. Boy, his lies cut me like a knife.
How is it possible that H could go from being someone everyone admired and respected (including myself) to being this total selfish bastard! Granted he's young and inexperienced, but he had me fooled anyway - I trusted that he was the good guy he presented himself to be those first 7+ years.
Thursday will mark the 8th anniversary of the day we met. He's supposed to be here to watch S3.5 but I'm already anticipating some sort of excuse. If he makes it I plan to go out and stay out as long as I can.
I am so confused about where to go from here. Do I just keep going without bringing up D, waiting for him to drop that bomb? Or do I pull the plug and move on with my life?
I wish I knew if he even missed me/us at all.
Well, I better get to bed ~ I'm starting a new job tomorrow and need to be up early.
Thanks again!
Monica
My sitch: Me 40 H 30 M 8 yrs 1 S5.5 Bomb Oct 2005 Sep Nov 2005 H w/ Ow I filed for LS June 2007 H responded w/ D 2007 I have sole P custody, joint L Just need to take care of Final Judgement papers