How do I behave around my cheating husband?

[MonicaP]

Thanks for responding Superstressed,

I'm sorry we're both in this boat, but I'm sure glad I'm not alone!

I just finished watching a movie called "The Notebook" about a real love affair, it was such a sweet/sad story. I can't help but remember when my H and I were so much in love.

Once we were having to say goodbye at the airport and we didn't know when we would see each other again (he's from another country)...we just sat in the middle of the airport crying and hugging and staring into each other's eyes. I waited just 6 weeks before I flew to his country and met his family, he returned with me and the rest is history...

I thought we would grow old together...

Instead I am watching him slip farther and farther away from me - into his new life with Ow.

Today our S3.5 asked H if he could go home with him, if "we could have a sleepover"...I think he meant all 3 of us He later asked me "why does daddy go home to his apartment? Why did you decide he wasn't going to live here anymore?"...this from a 3.5 yr old!

My heart is broken. Just when I think I'm so strong, some memory will kick in and topple me again. I miss him so much. I miss our life together. And there's not a damn thing I can do to change the fact that he has decided that I'm not the one for him and Ow is.

Oh, I don't think the Ow is the only thing that's keeping him from remembering our love and life together, it goes deeper than that. He seems quite depressed and rarely do I see him smile or laugh. It's very sad.

Well, I know I'm rambling but I needed to get this out tonight..