Our girls are old enough to take care of S#2, and they do it, too. W and I have some time together, but it's always with other friends. We go to friends' house most Saturday nights. We sometimes spend an afternoon on the weekend with same friends.
This is the most we can ask of our kids. W does not want to subordinate these outings to do things with me, and that's why we cannot ride together, golf together, or do anything I want to do together.
I could figure out a new path to my dream, but unless W buys into my dream, it won't happen.
I know this sounds like a downer, but that's the way things are.
W once said that I was waiting for her to change, and that it won't happen. To the extent that I want her to want me - both physically, and to pal around with, she's right on the first point, and to the extent that she won't change unless she decides to, she's right about the second.
BTW, she mentioned blood tests again. Figures she'll ask for the test the next time she goes for her allergy shot, but if it turns out positive, probably won't get an appointment for several months.
Thanks for the support, Lily. I really appreciate your encouragement.
