sort of new here..WAH came back,I feel so unloved

[Jen_Jam]

OMG I'm so glad I found this post. I have a WAH who is now back. He left last Spetmeber, came back in November, things got good again then I messed it up again with all my "you really hurt me, you have to tell me what went wrong, you were so lousy...rant rant rant etc". Life threw me a lesson and I lost it again. So in March it hit me again. H didn't walk away - I had already told him if he left again that was it, he told me he was unhappy again. He says he has "no passion", he is ILYBINILWY and although we share a bed there is no intimacy - he says there is a "cold space" between us. It hurts. A lot.
But I am on GAL and I have set goals, given myself a timeframe etc. He doesn't look like he is going for D, that's off the table, but he isn't really ready to rebuild our R right now. So I'm in a holding pattern (there was no OW, by the way).
It IS hard to let go of anger - I'm a typical redhead - and it can be hard to forgive but there is NO other option. H has already hinted that if we were to have a R again, there can be "no anger or bitterness" and this current situation isn't something he wants brought up in future arguments. I can't guarantee that will happen right now, I have to work on letting go of my hurt and anger. Something I read in an email is helping me right now, I'd like to share it:

>>The brightest future will always
>>be based on a forgotten past;
>>you can't go forward in life until
>>you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
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I'll keep this thread in my faves, I'm rooting for you all!