Well I am 5 months into the reconciling stage with my H....he was gone physically for a 1 1/2 yrs....it is a long road.... still haven't heard "I love you" but he is here and things are getting better....he decided to stop drinking all together because he saw what it was doing to his relationships with his kids, me, and God....so I am supporting him in this and trying to not be too suspicious the nights he spends elsewhere.... Last night as we lay watching a movie I told him I was glad he was here and he said "I'm glad I'm here too."....I didn't say another word....I just savored that moment...
I have to disagree with you on something though....I don't think God causes us misery....remember the god of this system of things is Satan....he is responsible for the mess mankind came into in the Garden of Eden....why would you think anything has changed to this day....he wants us to blame God....true, God allows us to be tried by Satan...Just as he did Job...to prove we can remain faithful to him....if we do it makes us stronger, HE sees to that....if we don't we become as many who blame God for our problems or begin to believe that God doesn't care about us....which is totally not true because why would he send his son as a ransom for us if he didn't care....why allow his son to see such a horrible death for us.....he did this out of love, justice, and wisdom....
Hang in there....it does get better if we keep getting better....I know the more I learn to improve myself the more I see an improvement in our relationship....it has been slow but considering that I felt like he would never ever ever be in my life again this is a HUGE step....I always said I could wait as long as it took as long as I could see something good in it....and I am seeing that...so I will keep waiting to hear those words again and to feel the full impact of them again..."I love you" will be when I know we are okay for good....
Don't give up....the game is still on....you can still win
