Thanks you two. And you're right cat, I do need to continue going to church - that's why I did last weekend. And I will continue to attend even if it feels like I'm a stranger in a strange land.
I guess the thing that I'm most upset about is that I guess I'm the type of person who doesn't get the lesson until I get smacked up side the head with a crisis. I've been through this before (not with my W but another crisis earlier in my life) and I'm tired of being pushed to the brink in order to change. Maybe I just need to learn to listen more carefully so I learn the lesson God wants me to learn without having to go through so much.
