sort of new here..WAH came back,I feel so unloved

[cat03]

grrrr! ImLIN, I never learn! I keep fooling myself thinking I'm doing it for the right reasons, to know how deep his R with OW went...

To the best of his knowledge he did get rid of any computer files and things about her, so I should remember that. I just found he had put cameras (he told me) to check on me, why would he do that? and I know he told OW about it, WTH??? found an old note saying how can can't trust the person the kids are with (me!)

Did snooping help me to make myself a better person? NO
would my H be angry if he found out? YES
did it make me feel better to see a pict of her face? NO
did I want to know how H felt that "everyday I see you (OW) it's like valentines" NO and NO

Saw a movie with H last Sat. night, it was called "the 3 funerals of Melchiades", (warning, spoiler!) this man drags this corpse for days, the body is decayed and beyond gone, yet he drags it, dusts it, tries to care for it. That's what I'm doing, dragging this corpse, its smell about me.

I'm done, truly done, I know he spent $$ and time w/ her a whole lot more than he did on the last year we were together before he left, nothing will change that, OW is a ghost and isn't part of his life now, MUST GET OVER IT, IT"S DONE

had to rant, the poison needs to come out...