Thank you all so much I do need to be reminded that I've come a long way, when my H left he barely looked me in the eye and had a lawyer, now he is home with me and we are communicating better.

I have come a ways since I first posted, I've understand that i can't demand nor expect his love this very second, I have my moments but then I remember the posts I read here and I shape up

The OW is pretty much banished from my mind, but I still have prob letting go with the curiosity to know about where and what he did when he was away. He was never one to go out nor do much, and I find here and there old phone numbers, addresses of places, infos of concerts and places he went to when he was away. Yes, I've gone low enough to check for every piece of paper I can get my hands on (check his pockets from the mound of clothes he brought back), look for receipts and read each of them meticulously ARGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

He's found me twice on the room where he keeps his stuff and suspects something, he is slowly opening up and my meddleing doesn't help, I find it near impossible to stop snooping! I know is bad, I will try hard to stop.

Thanks again for your support, only people who've gone through this trials could truly understand))))))))))) I keep all of you in my prayers too.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.