I'm stickig to the No talk of the OW for 21 days-that is unless he brings it up which is HIGHLY unlikley, or our MC will bring it up topmorrow night. SHe usually chekcs in about it. I'll just let him answer and see what he says. I Thin k what you said about them showing us they love us by thier actions is great! I will have to tell him that one. I know he'll say "well, don't I"? HE tends to get defensive very easily so I have to know how to come back after he asks that. HE does show me,but he could do alot more. I'm still waiting for that unasked for reassurance from him that he said he would do. I think he does not like to bring the past up,but he has toknow I still have to deal with it from time to time and he can help me through it. He's got a 5:30 appt. close to where she lives tonight. I know the people-but I ve only et them once, but we hung out with them for a long dayonthe lake once. I asked him if he wanted me to go with him. HE said do you think that's the thing to do? I said why not? I know them. I guess He did not think we knoew them well enough and iot would not look professional bringing his wife along although I'm sure they would not mind. dropped it-we'll see what he says later whenthe time comes. HE knows what I'm thinking. I know he won't go by her house or anything its just those old insecurities creeping in-he'll say I'll call you when I'm leaving there. WEll if he stays for 2 hrs I am going to be freaked out, and trying to keep my PMA up. THe other thing we can do is he can drop me off at his brothers and sister in law on his way there-they live real close and I can stay there while he goes and meets withthen and then we can all go out to eat afterwards. At this point I still have to do what I need to do to keep from tail spinning into a panic attack. He should know its still so raw that I need to know this is going to be safe. I'm going to the Dr. about my meds this morning. ALthough they help, I still have way too much anxiety. The more Adrian shows me in little ways he's REALLY back and that he loves me the less anxiety I have. I hate it being connected to how he treats me but that's just the way it is right now. What so you think I should do about the Appt. tonight? Any thoughts? I'd apprecaite the feedback! Thanks, Rachael M.
