Good post! Sounds like you got something out of your system.
Feel better??
Now, get on with things.
I can only imagine how hard this must be for you right now. I understand all of your feelings and I am pretty sure they are all very normal.
I do not know anything about your situation except what you just posted here, but I couldn't help but repsond to you.
You got out the things you want to say to xH here. Does that help you? If so, then let US have it. I don't think it will do any good to say those things to him and in the end it won't really make you feel any better either. Just my opinion.
I am not really in a position to be giving out advice so I will try not to tell you too much about what you "should" do.
Except to say this.... even though you don't see it right now, this just may be the best thing that ever happened to you. A piece of advice that I have been given here that will apply to you also is to focus on YOU! This is your time, make the very most of it. Do what you want to do. Do everything for yourself that you always wanted to do. Everything else will fall into place. I just know it.
Keep a positive attitude and keep busy. Throw that party!!
My thoughts and prayers will be with you and I am here if you need to do anymore venting.
