Glad to hear there are some good days at least,you deserve everyone you can get.I screwed up last night and got into an OR talk.She said I was pushing her and she wasn't ready for the kind of R that I wanted.I want her to be ready before she comes back because I know this is the only way it will work.But then she goes over to this guys house and stays really late and I called her but I didn't let her know that I knew.Things get back to me before she ever leaves in a town this small.She started to lie to me and just say she was at home but then she was like maybe I was talking to him about you,he is a mutual friend.Even after our middle of the night talk she seemed fine this morning when I dropped the kids off.I told her again that I will not share her and either she will have to decide to work on OR or act like we are D.She had done so many things in the recent past such as the pool and vacation that I don't think are normal for XWs that aren't at least thinking about coming back.She said she putthe pool in for the kids but then when I told her that if she wasn't thinking about working on us that there wasn't any use in me waiting around she said that if she wasn't working on it she wouldn't have put the pool in.She lets me get just far enough away that I could take that final step and then she pulls me back into the whirlpool.
