I read your thread that you posted to mine. I was struck hard by two posts. The first was The Anchor Holds. I loved that and it reminded me that I need to hold steadfast in the face of uncertainty, terrible storms and hopelessness. I will It's a song. A man at our church sings it sometimes and it has really been coming into my mind a lot lately.
Second, was the post regarding your stay at home alone. The loneliness enveloped you. You wrote:
Quote: THIS is what I put my husband through when I made him leave the house...and therefore the kids. I asked God to forgive me for that. I wonder if the silence in his life was deafening? It was for me.
I cried when I read that and did again when I posted this. THAT is what I have to look forward to when I move. The loneliness and silence. To make matters worse, I get a double whammy. I cheated on my W and my W asked me to leave, so now I spend many a night without my beloved family. Pray with me, if you would.
You will have the kids with you a lot though and the rest of the time you WILL be getting a life. That'll make it easier. That was ONE night that the kids were with their Dad. Last Friday night. I guess I had not yet been without them since ending coming out of the tunnel. They were ALL at his parents house and I felt so damn EXCLUDED. It was a part of this valley that I had to pass through, though. Praise the Lord, it is done! See even this far into it, almost 9 months now, I am STILL being shown the effects of my MLC. It'll take as long as it takes. For both of us, HH.
