If you have been reading my threads from the beginning, you have seen the times I have stumbled and outright tripped and fell in this walk I am on. Sometimes I had to lay there a while and let God
deal with me about my own issues and then let HIM raise me back up. Lately it seems I am literally up one week and plummeting the next. Sometimes even more often.
Sometimes I give up and get back up multiple times in the same freakin day.
Bottom line though, I haven't yet earned the right to give up and walk away.
Not after everything I have put my husband through.
I owe him MUCH more fight than I have put forth to date.
And so I press on.
Just last week I was shown yet another way in which I failed my husband. So obviously God is still working on ME, which means I am not ready for my husband to come home, no matter how ready I may think I am.
Until you meet God on His terms and surrender to Him entirely you will battle uphill and never gain the power to put this mountain under your feet where He means it to be.
