Marital troubles. My fault; I had an affair. When my W asked me if my having an A was true, I was mortified, embarassed, and I did NOT want to admit it to my W so, (for me, of course), I lied about stepping out of my M. Yes, I had though. I am not proud of what I did and I am still horribly embarassed.
Unfortunately, I am now the liar because my W and my in-laws believe that since I did what I did, I am suspect in everything. To them, I AM the liar. I am nothing else. It's that black and white to them. THAT is making working here untenable. I don't know what exactly is going to happen, but I may ending needing to quit and work elsewhere. I have such a loyalty to my MIL and her business, yet she has no loyalty to me. That fact is making my decicion easier.
Lately, my knees have been buckling too frequently. The enemy is rounding up his troops to wreak havoc on my life, my W, my M,and my family. People are working hard to make my life more difficult and to try and convince me that believing in my W and M is useless/fruitless. My faith has held me up though, and I am leaning heavily on AmyC here for spiritual guidance and support. I BELIEVE and have STRONG FAITH that my God is 100% for redemption, restoration, and reconciliation.
The good news for is that I will be moving into 2 weeks to my new place. I will continue looking for a new job that I will be able to support myself and our children with. In fact, I have another test at a national company on Monday for a sales position. My experience in looking for a job in April/May has been that when I get an interview, I am offered the job. I turned down 2 job offers in May to stay at my present job. Nice, huh? The good news is that I am not afraid to be on the job hunt this time.
