interesting note today. My W called me and asked my to go to lunch with her. I gladly accepted. When the time came, my W told my her mother was going to lunch with us. Funny thing happened. My MIL asked my W why she was being so nice with me. Later, I asked my W what her mother meant by that and my W told me that her mother thinks that we flirt with each other ALL the time.
I don't know what any of that means, but it means something. Good or bad? Who knows. After we got back to the office, my W walked in and I was typing this post. I asked her if she was wondering what I was doing on the computer? She said she wasn't and told me, "You want to tell me so tell me." I did, b/c I didn't want her wondering despite saying she wasn't. I also told her this BB is on DivorceBusting.com.
Since I had already backslid that far, I also told her that I don't want a divorce and that I love her. Of course, she didn't respond and I told her quickly that I didn't expect a response. She just sat there pleasantly and we said goodbye.
Anyway, at this point my missteps and backsliding seem to be occuring more frequently. What I need is "a serious talking to" by my DB/DR compatriots on staying the course and NOT spilling my guts about what my W already know ! ! ! GH has told me that she focuses on me when I make myself the focus. And, if the focus is on me, then she cannot focus on herself, healing and forgiveness.
We will see. I am getting the feeling that I need to be hit by a bowling ball to back off and let God do His work in my life and in our M.
GH has told me that she focuses on me when I make myself the focus. And, if the focus is on me, then she cannot focus on herself, healing and forgiveness.