Today I went to pick up our children for church, unfortunately they were not up and ready. Anyway, I had already offered to spend time with our children so that my W would have time to clean up the house. We all ended up spending time together in the pool, which was nice.
At one point we all went to get ice cream and then my W washed her car. I don't recall exactly how it happened, but my W said to me, "You really missed me while I was gone, huh?" I responded, "I miss you all the time, whether you are gone or not." She looked a little let down, so I told her, "Yes, honey, you needed an affirmation. I missed you terribly while you were gone." She said quickly, I wasn't looking for an affirmation. I let it go. IMHO she was definitely looking for affirmation that she is loved and missed.
The whole day was nice. No tension. No bickering. Just spending time together. A deposit into my DB account, hopefully. I honestly think my wife is hurting and terribly confused. EVERYONE in my life says she is NOT hurting, and THAT is NOT why she is behaving the way she is. I only know that I am going to err on the side of grace and give her the benefit of the doubt that she is hurting and VERY confused.
All I really feel like I can do is rely on who I have become over the past 4-5 months. I like the man I have become and I continue to grow in positive ways every day. I truly want to leave NO stone unturned in working to mend my M and I will NEVER[/I] quit fighting for my W, my M and my family.
Thanks for listening all. Good night. I have some praying to do tonight.
