Tonight I am at our house spending time with our children. My W's good friend/neighbor (f/n) down the street was on the corner watching her child play with my D and some other neighborhood children. I spoke with f/n for quite some time. She and her H are in the beginning stages of a D also. We talked and supported each other to stay strong, and focus on our children. I don't know if her impending D is her decision, his or both of theirs and didn't want to ask b/c I would then be obligated to tell our story from my point of view and THAT would have gone over like a fart in church with my W.
My W has always accused me of trying to "steal" HER friends whenever we were having problems, so I really try to NOT give too much of myself in any conversation with those people she considers HER friends because I don't want the backlash.
F/n made a comment about working things out (in my M) and that was followed by a comment about dating others (NOT e/o). I responded to the portion about my NOT being interested in dating (again, NOT e/o)but she thought I was talking about not being interested in getting back together with my W. I corrected that and told her that I was talking about my not being interested in dating others. F/n then said I would really love to see the two of you get back together.
F/n is my W's good buddy and confidante. I WILL take that comment as a positive one, since this f/n is privy to ALL of my W's thoughts/feelings and she still made that comment. Perhaps God is working in mysterious ways through unexpected messengers. I am not attaching a lot of importance to f/n comment, but she did NOT have to say what she did and it was an unsolicited vote of hope for the restoration and reconciliation of my M. Hmmm....
And yet my W continues to run hard to get away from me and her feelings. I truly see her as being afraid of her feelings. For me, that would translate to living in my head and not in my heart. Always spelled disaster for me. I will continue to pray that God show her and tell her His plan and I pray that her heart is open to receiving His will. I also send positive thoughts/energy her way to assist her in defeating the enemy and driving the enemy from her life.
I truly believe that I know what God's plan is for me, my W, and my family. That plan is for our redemption, restoration and reconciliation so that He will be glorified in our lives together.
