Hey Jabez, thanks for checking in on me. I'm doing fine. Much better than I was before when I was focusing on my M 24 hours a day 7 days a week. As much as this board can help, sometimes getting away is critical. I'm reading a book called "Dark Nights of the Soul" by Thomas Moore and so far it's a great read. I've realized that I don't have to treat the problems in my life right now, primarily my M, as a problem to be fixed. Rather I can experience the feelings and the circumstances and feel more like I am on a journey in life rather than lost in the woods desperate to find the path to 'fix' everything. I have steered clear of relationship books because I can't control what my H does. Reading about how to make my M better frustrates me. Expecting nothing is a crock. When you're reading the books, trying things, monitoring the results, eventually you're gonna expect something. So, the only way I have found to not expect anything is to focus strictly on me and this journey, not on my M. I'm living my life, spending time with my kids, trying to be in today instead of tomorrow.
In short, that's my update.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
