This had a huge effect on my self esteem because I felt like there was something wrong with me as a mother and therefore as a person.
Heather, I think that your self-esteem issues started way back with your childhood. I remember reading your FOO story and I was struck by the fact that your parents didn't seem to tell you what a great kid you were and support you in school and activities. Your feelings of being left out are continuation.
I've never been to a martial arts class, but I've read that they can really teach you dicipline and boost your self-esteem.
