Boy, do I know what you mean about having too much time to think. I've been trying to keep buzy as much as possible, and I'm exhausted. But it's working. I haven't brought up anything with H about the A since last week's MC session. That's a record for me!
I know the next couple of days are going to be difficult, but you KNOW you have NOTHING to worry about. It's unfortunate that we are left with these feelings of anxiety in the aftermath of an A, especially when our H's have done everything possible to ease that anxiety. Just human nature, I guess. Once the trust has been broken there will always be a sliver of mistrust left no matter how hard we try to put it aside. Just remember it's not just our burden -- it's our Hs also. They have to deal with their own feelings of not being completely trusted and knowing that they've brought it on themselves.
So, keep yourself busy. Come back here and post if the demons start knocking on your door. Call your H at 2:00 a.m. if you need to. Do whatever you have to do to make yourself comfortable.
I'll be checking in later.
Matilda
p.s. Why don't you accompany him on these outtings. Even if you just sit around the pool and read or go to a mall and shop during the day at least you'd be together in the evenings. Could be fun.
