Well, the weekend went very well -- for me anyway. We did have a couple of OR talks, which I thought were really helpful, but I'm not too sure about H. I think that anything dealing with the subject of OR makes him feel guilty just for the mere fact that we need to have an OR talk. I woke up Sunday morning crying softly. I don't even remember what caused that. H wrapped his arms around me and said, "I'm sorry." I said, "What are you sorry for? You don't even know why I'm upset." His reply, "Whatever it is, I probably caused it." How sad, huh?
He worked all day Sunday painting the kitchen and installing new recessed lights, so that evening we sat in the spa and soaked away our troubles. H had had a cocktail and was smoking a Cuban cigar that his parents had just brought back from Cuba (smugglers ) and it all left him feeling very loose. I took advantage of that to start a conversation about the A. Still need to go over a few things it seems. It was a very good talk (for me, again). H was starting to get upset a little near the end. Like I posted above, and as I told H that night, each time we have what I consider a "good" talk (no recriminations or hysterics - just the facts, ma'am), I feel a little more of my resistence to forgiveness fading away. H was grateful to hear that.
As a result, I can report that I'm having portions of time without this whole mess consuming my full attention. I've been feeling very positive now for almost two weeks. Really no obsessing - just some thoughts here and there that I feel I'm much more in control of now. Of course, it helps that there is much to keep my attention diverted at this time of the year. S had senior prom on Saturday -- what a handsome young man . He graduates HS in a month and I have family coming to stay with us. Also, our BFs' D is getting married the end of June and I'm throwing a couples bridal shower for the couple the day after S graduates from HS cuz a lot of the same people who will be attending his graduation will want to attend the shower. So there are a lot of happy and busy thoughts occupying my mind right now.
Just wanted to update everyone. For now things seem to be getting much better.
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) and it all left him feeling very loose. I took advantage of that to start a conversation about the A. Still need to go over a few things it seems. It was a very good talk (for me, again). H was starting to get upset a little near the end. Like I posted above, and as I told H that night, each time we have what I consider a "good" talk (no recriminations or hysterics - just the facts, ma'am), I feel a little more of my resistence to forgiveness fading away. H was grateful to hear that. ![[Big Grin]](images/icons/grin.gif){kind=icon}
. He graduates HS in a month and I have family coming to stay with us. Also, our BFs' D is getting married the end of June and I'm throwing a couples bridal shower for the couple the day after S graduates from HS cuz a lot of the same people who will be attending his graduation will want to attend the shower. So there are a lot of happy and busy thoughts occupying my mind right now.
