I am starting to realize that this thing may be pretty cut and dried. Either she is still seeing OM (doubtful) or she is just waiting for me to DO something, which to this point I have done a piss-poor job of. IF I were her, I wouldn't feel any passion from me either. Maybe THAT's what's communicating that idea that I "won't allow her to have a good time" if we do ML. Maybe it's too awkward right now, on top of being passionless.
Something that OT said to me VERY early on in her posts to me still resonates every day, SEVERAL times a day. She suggested that W just wants me to roll her over and give her a hard, passionate kiss. W want's to FEEL something from me.
Well, for some reason, I can't, or don't want to maybe, muster that up. I am still looking for her to meet me half-way and I suppose I have to get over that because if I keep waiting, well...then again, as Mama said, good things do come to those who wait.
I am still conflicted about exactly when and what to do, but I am 100% convinced that I DO need to DO something. That was not the case a month ago.
