I will add something to this discussion today, kinda in answer to the point that was made that my W doesn't get to see the "me" you all see.
Well, I was just thinking about all the wonderful new ideas I have heard today, and how to USE them in my life and I found the disconnect between the "DB Message Board" me and the real "What W Sees" me. It is the fact that most of my daily existence is free from existential discussion with W. We do dishes. We talk about the kids, and yes, SOME about us, but the kind of discussion WE get into here, almost never happens at home. We just don't go deep. Most of our communication is about daily, mundane stuff, and most of even the emotional, or deeper conversation is merely in reaction to some event of the day, not our long term issues, desires and needs.
Part of that could be because I have not been willing to be open with W (that will change now) and part of it is this block my W has toward all things philosophical or psychological. Funny, my two favorite classes in college, well three really, were Philosophy, psychology (was a psyche major at the time) and World Religion. Those were my W's least favorite classes.
It's not that she doesn't like to think, it's that she doesn't like to talk about, or examine thinking, while I, obviously, love nothing more than to examine my own thinking, and that of others.
So, I am wondering if my W's not seeing THIS me is because I don't show him to her, or because she truly wouldn't like him. That is interesting for me to think about.
I know she thinks I talk to much, brood too much and obsess over things, so maybe without all that, streamlined down to its essential ideas, she COULD be exposed to this me and like him...er...me...whatever, lol.
