Wow Gh, I feel exactly the same way most times these days.To much to soon.I feel like it was to easy for her(if that makes sense)Here she got to go off and have this A and party hearty for 6 months while i was sitting around crying and feeling sorry for myself and she just gets to walk back into my life whenever she felt like it!## Sorry for that..those are just thoughts i think we may all have some time.Just venting a little. I think you are right though and i am going to try and take your advice to yourself as well. Its tough Gh,hang in there,as i am trying just as you. I do think it is good to talk to your W if you have some things on your mind,because the longer you hold them in the worse they seem to get.Whenever i get like that and ask my W something..Yes she gets angry and defensive some times,but no matter what she tells me about what i asked..good or bad..it makes me feel better.I think the fact that they are willing to give information or tell you something about the A gives you reassurance that it is over.Hell i dont know..it just makes me feel better..that is until a day or two later when i think of something else. But trust me..the days get fewer and far between when your W is not so reluctant to talk and give reassurance once in a while. Dont feel bad WE DO DESERVE THAT!!! Good Luck DeeJay