Fortune cookie says:

"He who has not tasted the bitter does not understand the sweet".

Matilda, you keep going back for the bitter tastes.
Reach for the sweetness and bypass the bitter.

At least, that's what I tell myself.

BTW my H is coming out of whatever you want to call it. He's amazed when the C comments that the two of us have been working so hard. I thought she meant that H had reached somewhere deep within himself to change his mind, change his perceptions of me and us. That is hard work. Me? I feel like I'm resting, catching my breath, adjusting my thong (LOL) and waiting for H to catch up.

You're going to get to the other side and you're gonna love him as much as he loves you!!!