Yeah, Matilda. Please don't think that I don't sympathize. Like I said, I have nothing but admiration for you.
I guess I can sympathize with your H too, though. I'm sure that he doesn't think that being stupid makes it okay. I've done stupid things that have consequences, and I can't come up with excuses either.
But, ya can't unring the bell.
You're one of the biggest winners I've encountered, Matilda. I know you won't give up.